Tears of Freedom

You broke me down and didn't even care

Used, abused, I sit here and stare

into space as I remember our full past

that flew by so terribly and painfully fast.

I wish you were human or even humane 

only you know that you gave me this pain

Your evil pops up in front of my face

those memories of which I refuse to embrace

Without expectation the hate and fear builds

It is then that I am forced to rely on my skills.

You reinforced ed to the utmost extreme

until inside only I could scream.

A pretty face and body that kills

was never enough so you turned to your pills

they may show you happiness or even a high, 

but that didn't help, but you refused to say bye

Instead you chose her and deceived your own wife

Till death do us part...not in this life.

After dust settles and you are alone in your room

I wonder if you ponder the extent of your doom.

My heart is light, don't worry about me

I have a life worth living called RECOVERY.

Without you I thrive and have light in my eyes

a pep in my step and no longer live lies.

I am free from control, no longer am scared

Everyone knew we were not that well paired.

Sad days may come and the sun may hide

but my worst day without you trumps the best at your side.

I am loved and encouraged and I stand on my own

with the knowledge that you will end up alone.

Your future is dismal and your 'love' is self serving,

I wish I had missed the boat even by swerving.

I get to move on, my heart not splayed

and you get to sleep in the bed that you made.

As for me, my heart will go on

I will grow, climb, overcome and be strong.

I am free while gladly sprinting towards the prize

which includes but is not limited to sparkling eyes

not from tears, but from gratitude galore

I am in love with my life once more.

~Haley~